Saturday, March 29, 2008

Broken Directional



Have you ever felt completely invisible? As if, all of a sudden (or perhaps gradually and painfully over the PAST TWO YEARS) the people who have sworn to love you and care about you and respect you one day said " oh to hell with this, as of today person X ceases to exist. Unless I have the urge to shit all over someone, then, like magic, person X shall be at my mercy."

No matter how I try, no matter what I do, I am person X. It's gotten so that sometimes I can't even see myself.

5 comments:

2amsomewhere said...

A song apropos of your emotional space this day...

Alison Moyet, "Invisible"

Lyrics are here.

The key to your freedom is not only believe, but also to feel and live as such, that it doesn't matter whether some people don't think you matter anymore.

You matter.

--
2amsomewhere

flutter said...

We see you, even if he doesn't

liv said...

oh, babe. wholeness is a journey out of this place. one step at a time, hon.

i see you quite clearly. you are beautiful.

Farrell said...

I've been there. I don't know if you believe me, but I have and I'm not there now, and you won't be there one day.

Letters from the End said...

I was introduced to your blog recently... And it's been... Important to me on some level to start reading this. In my separation and impending divorce, I've gotten a lot of support, but noone else I've talked with has actually gone through what I'm going through - or anything similar. So there's a lot of "there, there, it sucks", and it helps... But it's different to hear someone else's story. It makes me feel a little less alone, I guess.

Anyway, yeah. I don't know who you are, but thank you for being brave.